Things to remember
May 18th, 2006 by Liss
As she often does, Abby fell asleep nursing the other night. As her sleep deepened, she got that little bit heavier, as sleeping babies do. Her tongue occasionally flashed over her lower lip, maybe trying to catch the little bit of milk that had slipped out the corner of her mouth.
I set aside the Boppy and just held her for a bit, kissing her sweet-smelling head and running my finger over her cheek as she slept. She curled up a bit, resting her head on my chest and snuggling into my arms. I realized again how quickly she’s growing - how short a time I’ll have her this small. I sat and rocked her and thought to myself that I never want to forget that feeling.
I want to somehow memorize every bit of how it feels to hold her when she’s this small, this trusting, and this dependent on me so that I can call it up instantly when she’s pushing me away, rushing to be independent and grownup and separate and anything other than my perfect, sweet baby girl.