Holding patterns
August 3rd, 2006 by Liss
For the last five months, I’ve lived in a short-term world, not knowing whether I’d be able to swing staying home with Abby and freelancing, or whether I’d find myself back in the full-time office-based workforce and scrambling to find some sort of day care solution that didn’t generate utter despair. I’ve been working toward getting as much freelance work as I can handle, and I’m finally feeling like this might actually work.
It wasn’t until I got this last contract that I actually felt like I could breathe a little bit. I can sign Abby up for Water Babies and not worry that I’m going to lose 80% of the enrollment fee by taking her out of classes to go to day care instead. I can stop stressing out about the fact that I haven’t been pumping successfully for months now and if I have to put Abby in day care my meager little stockpile will last all of a week or so before she’s either starving or taking formula.
I can finally say that this…what we have right now…this is our life. It’s sometimes hard, and often frustrating, and I may grimace at the baby monitor that shows signs of a nap ending inconveniently early, but it’s how our life is going to be for awhile. And I am completely and totally thrilled.