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I’ve been sitting here noodling around with a few things - a little bit of freelance work here, some web-surfing there - thinking the whole time how tired I am. At one point I actually said out loud “I am so exhausted I just wish I could go to sleep.” And then I realized…hey, I can! I don’t have to stay up to some arbitrary time, or to accomplish some non-deadline-suffering task. I can go to sleep whenever I want to!

So that’s what I’m going to do.

Almost every parent thinks that their kid is the cutest ever. I’m sorry to tell you, though, that if you are not my husband and you think that…you are wrong. Because my kid is, in fact, the cutest kid ever. You need proof? Okay.

I’m sorry, did I say “cute”? I might not have been entirely correct there. Maybe the more accurate phrase would be “so gorgeous it might be illegal in some states”.

The problem with RSS feeds is that you usually don’t subscribe to your own feeds, so you don’t know that they’re broken until someone tells you. So…yes, I know my feeds are broken. Hopefully I’ll find time this weekend to fix them, but if not…well, obviously you’re not missing much!

I was thinking today about the state of my life, trying to figure out whether I’m happier or less happy than I used to be. There are a lot of things in our world right now that are extremely frustrating and cause me not a little bit of stress. I try to manage it as best I can, but I’ve found myself lately reverting to my “old faithful” coping strategy - namely, ignore it and hope it goes away. That would be great, except I’m actually all grown up now and do in fact know that problems ignored do not tend to fade away painlessly.

All that aside, though, I realized that overall, I’m actually very happy. And it’s easy to see why - Abby. Every single day, she makes me smile and laugh like no one else can. When I’m sad, she looks at me with her little face all screwed up with concern and comes to sit on my lap and give me kisses and say “all better?” (It sounds more like “Ah Bettah” though.) She is such an earnest and serious child, all contemplation and examination - but she’s also an incredibly happy and funny person who loves nothing more than to do something silly just because she knows it will make me laugh.

She reminds me that no matter what problems I may think I have, I am actually fortunate and wealthy beyond what I could ever deserve. I could lose every material thing I have and I would still be one of the luckiest people around. She is perspective, personified.